this kills me

ti kills me to think that you've moved on already. and the thought that i'm the reason you moved on is even worse. it must kill you to be in your position. i have no idea. and i am so so so so so so so very sorry. i will be jealous. i just hope that i have something to hold onto when this is all done. i'm sad. i'm hurt. i'm angry. i'm not fully over you yet. i did start to love you. you were everything i wanted. but i just had to try this just one last time.