What I want to say

i want to say i'm mortified, i want to say i can't believe i was so dumb. i want to say that the one small issue made me never want to write again, but here i am. pouring my heart out to someone who won't even read it. to someone who i know will appreciate it later on...looking back. who will just simply smile and say...i remember. this time it's for me. not anyone else.